In Transition

The women’s ministry at my church started If:Table groups earlier this year (more information about this ministry can be found here, http://www.ifgathering.com). After the first meeting, I was already blown away. I mean to tell you that it blessed my socks off! The goal of these groups is fellowship and spiritual growth among women of various backgrounds. My group is made up of one stay at home mom in her 30s, a working mom also in her 30s, a widow with adult children who is in her 50s, and me, a 30 something (pushing 40) working woman who is married without children. So each of us is experiencing something different in our lives right now and that is part of what makes us coming together so great. One of the questions we answered in our first session was, “How would you define the season of life you are in right now?”. I described my current season of life as a transition period. I have been married for 2 years and one month and yes, I am still in the transition period as it relates to being married. I was single for 35 years! So I have not mastered being the godly wife I’d like to be. Nor have I figured out how to prioritize my time with the Lord while trying to be the godly wife I want to be. I have actually found myself on the verge of tears more than once when I’ve thought about this fact. I just cannot seem to do it all and often feel like I’m failing at both my “super wife” goal and my “woman after God’s own heart” goal. And I know that’s part of settling into this season of life; getting to the place where I am really okay with not being able to do it all. As a single woman, I knew that this would be a challenge for me. I enjoyed being busy with ministry, family, friends, service opportunities and can’t forget “me time”! So all of these things are important to me but in this season, I’ve had to learn how to prioritize things that are important to my husband as well. The challenge and the blessing in this is that not being able to give 100% of myself to everything and everyone allows me to recognize my limitations and rest in all of who God is. There is a freedom in this. A freedom in knowing that my shortcomings as a wife, friend, ministry leader or any of my other roles, is an opportunity for God’s grace to be shown, for His strength to be perfected in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). His grace is shown when things look a hot mess, and then life goes on. I realize I’m still here. The world hasn’t ended, and I’m still in one piece. Isn’t that good news ya’ll! We are still here. Every moment that we are still here, is evidence of God’s grace towards us. It’s His grace that allows us the opportunity to live in total surrender to His plan to get glory out of our lives. As imperfectly as we do this, he allows us to continue and more than that, gives us strength for the journey.

3 thoughts on “In Transition”

  1. Manda, I did not realize that your first post was actually in November. So, this is actually my second reply. I look forward to following you along this journey. God bless and keep you. Remember, we are all in this together.

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  2. Manda!!! Again this was good! And again I can identify with this place!!! Now going on our 4th Year of marriage ( OMGGG) lol 4 years yippee! I am still trying to balance being a mature woman. Not that I’m imature but that coming into that almost 40 age and “wearing” that. Do you know what I’m saying? As well as being a Godly , loving and Captivating wife. Not to mention balancing what God gave me to do ( my organization Young Pioneers Enrichment Center) this is truly my baby and God breathed. Along with balancing supporting his goals and dreams. Hello somebody! So I’m there with you. Time management, spending time with the Lover of my soul. Not to mention all of this before we have a child. 😳 The Father has been oh so faithful to meet me in this season. He is my hope!

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